Today...I woke up in the morning, supposed to be Eid's morning, the day that we should have celebration and having fun.
At first I went downstairs, hugged my dad and wished him the best for the new year..and after a while he just shocked me with the news. He said that Saddam was executed earlier this morning.. I was feelingless at that point, because I was still sleepy. I stood there speachless, thinking of the whole thing and the consequences of this matter, and about the timing of the execution which is in Eid's morning.
Anyway I went up to my room again, dressed myself up, and went straight to my grandpah's house, where all the family comes on Eid's morning and have lunch and enjoy the first day of Eid. I enterd the room where they were all gathered. I noticed the sad look on their faces. I started to hug each one of them and wish them the best for the new year, then sat with them for a while. They were talking about this execution and they were very mad and angry about it, first because they think that this trial is not legitimate, and secondly that the timing of this execution is very bad. I remained speachless there too, because I didn't know what to say, I wasn't so sure about my feelings myself, I was like am I happy or am I sad or what the hell am I feeling??!
Anyway, Eid continued at grandpah's house as usual. We had a nice lunch and everything was okay. Then after I went to see my friend who wasn't feeling anything about the whole matter and wasn't thinking about the consequences.
I returnd home and still haven't decided my feelings whether I'm sad or happy. Now as I'm writing this post I can describe my feelings very well, but still don't know what other people might think of me saying this.
I think I'm happy to see this despot receiving a fair verdict and being executed for the crimes he had done to the Iraqi people, and for his aggressive behaviour towards the poor people. And yet, I'm so sad actually that this (great man as he was) this symbol of the Arab nation (as hypocrites used to describe him) is being treated this way.. being hold with disgust by two guards, and executed in this humiliating manner, its too much for me to take easily..
I think the Iraqi government has taken this day to carry out the verdict to avenge themselves and to attack the Sunni community in an indirect way, because today was only the Sunni's Eid, not the Shiite's Eid..
They were eager to execute him as soon as they can, to insure their wicked sick minds that the idea of Saddam coming back to power will be terminated, though they know that this won't happen even if he remained alive..
Anyway, carrying out the verdict will not solve anything, and will not make the security situation any better, it will only make it worse, and by this bad timing they attacked an important sect of the Iraqi people, and I don't think that this sect will remain harmless to what they've did..
Finally, I still don't know whether I'm happy or sad.. but to say the truth I'm sad, because I think that Iraq will never ever have a president that knows how to deal with the bad groups of the iraqi people like Saddam.